lovers part. you close your eyes to see what it’s done.
you wait for the remedy- the meaning of everything to come crashing into your consciousness, but no answers make themselves apparent, and you are left colder than before.
you live like this, veiled in a delicate world, and you believe you are living. then one person comes along, and saves you from your idea of life.
you are a fool, but you are awake now. you hear music differently, you see nature in an entirely new way, you read more great books - nothing is the same. the beauty that they bring, illumination.
you’re not the one to talk things through, and life breaks you both. life is suffering after all, that is indisputable. you feel used, but you know more now.
you see that responsibility and love give life meaning. you act as if being is good. you are broken, but you still see the goodness.
it has been said, that making happiness the focal point of your life trivializes your experiences. because in order to regard anything as truly important you must regard its loss as truly meaningful. to open yourself up to experiences of deep meaning also means you have to open yourself up to the possibility of deep hurt and sorrow.
you are not the master of your own house, and all suffering will only serve expansion.
xx
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