"smoke ring for my halo" (bonus track version)

by Rachel Lynch


When asked by his wife if we two are lovers, he says, "I hardly know her, besides, she's not my type." 

And I'm the one who gives it at any give time. I get you Damien. I'll sleep in the very she's been in. I don't mind. I like this wild kind of life. Hiding up on Wooster Street, smoking cigarettes in a snake kimono. 

There's something about being someone's lover that gives me the energy to live a creative life. And not the lovers that take from you. I'm talking about the ones that only come around once and a while, but they lift you from the ground like magic. Was it Conor Oberst who first sang about wanting a lover he didn't have to love. 

I can't take the constant contact from needy lovers, perhaps because I recognize the same neediness in myself. I like the fever of a moment, not the incessant exposure of one's entire being. 

There's a saying that love brings up everything unlike itself. I don't think someone like you should have to see all the ghosts that live in me. 

I don't really know if you came by today, but I feel the memory of your skin. You're off wandering now, making art in some other city. You pretend to lack purpose, just like myself. 

I like to come off as reckless and lazy, but really I've reached this point where I can't help but have my shit together. Maybe that's growing up. Maybe it's just because another year has gone by. 

I'm in New York missing Mexico, but summer mornings here are similar to mornings in Playa. Then, I was reading the Bhagavad of Gita, now I'm reading a Course in Miracles. I find myself to be a new person with each book, mind expanding with a fever for words and the experiences that follow. 

The mind serving love is in it's natural state, no matter what kind of love that may be. 

 

navy bra set by yandy

metallic and lace deep plunge teddy by yandy

sheer striped bra and high-waisted panty set by yandy

pink heart mesh high-waisted bra by yandy

pastel fur by mademe

carlina sunglasses by Chloe

purple platforms by Miu Miu

lips kimono by Discount Universe

love never lasts tee by Discount Universe

photos by Jen Senn