I was so self-aware, and then you consumed me. I knew who I was, and you broke that consistency. I made these plans with you around. Lust is just a child's game.
If you're going to walk into people's lives with no plans for staying, how do you sleep at night? Do tell. I need a little bit of that punch. To love someone and then get tossed aside, this is often how it's done. Chain smoking, painting, listening to music - everybody's saying you're no good for me. Out of my mind, out of your life.
x
i just want to feel everything. don't listen to a word they say. fruit. i want to dive into my mind, and bring the honey of my dreams to fruition. when you're able to convey the art you dreamed up in reality, that is the meaning of life (for the artist.) we were born mad, with the incessant need to create. unrelenting, we all have so much inside us. if we can't find ways to bring our beauty into the world, we will surely go crazy. we break things, people, ourselves. the healthiest thing an artist can do is guide her art into the world.
<3
disco's not dead platform boot by Dolls Kill
pink feather jacket by Jocelyn
never gonna give u up leather skirt by Nasty Gal
You like noisy music?
"Yes. The louder the better. Stops me from thinking."
You don't like to think? What do you like?
"Never thought about it."
black hoodie by Punk Rave
photos by Tutes
Mind on fire, come and step inside my dreams. A product of all the books I've read and rock n roll I've consumed, I'm not ready for this new world. A wave of hatred, a country divided. Human rights threatened, keeping us up at night and stealing from our creativity.
The future still belongs to us, the artists that made it beautiful and safe for everyone. I always admire human's ability to keep going, to bring creation out of hard times.
Our minds and hearts have been opened by the world in which we have created together, and nothing is going to change that.
xx
black sabbath tee by Nasty Gal
white sunnies by crap eyewear
photos by tutes
Stay the next day, the sunset pours in a few hours after we wake up. Binge-watching "it's aways sunny" by your side, made it all the way to season five. I'll always pick your clothes up off the floor. Empowered when we enjoy the present, supermoon in Taurus. It tells us the world out there can wait.
We're building something inside ourselves now. Grounded in reality and the foundation of our connection, my fears turn into raw creative potential. Time past has given me the chance to appreciate the knowledge gained from difficult circumstances. I don't mind sharing this with you. I wear the calm you give me like a new lipstick.
Can't tell you what I've been through these days. Smoke in the air. Now I'm you're one and only. Nothing was ever forced - and I guess that's what makes it raw, creative, and real. But where do I draw the line? Certainly there are some things I must keep just for myself - like my prayers, my songs, my books. Just because someone inspires you creatively, doesn't mean they own a part of your music.
You have always been your own.
xx
camilla bralette by Naked Princess
camilla high-waisted thong by Naked Princess
black sabbath tee by Nasty Gal
crap eyewear tropic shades by Nasty Gal
Mouth off leather jacket by Nasty Gal
studded over the knee boot by Nasty Gal
photos by Jen Senn
"You can't get wet from the word water." An expression I have often heard from many of my teachers, but never understood. Traveling to China is the farthest I have ever been from my home - both physically and cullturally. Sometimes I think that because I watch movies, listen to music, and read books, that I understand things. But the more I travel, I realize that nothing is as illuminating as the real thing.
On our second day in China, I woke up to an article my love had sent me via we chat. Although he was laying next to me in bed, he still sent it in a message. It was entitled "Foreign Spouse, Happy Life." The writer spoke of the difficulties and the triumphs she has experienced while being in a partnership with a man from France. After she shared her story, these words particularly touched my heart,
"Anyone who risks a life with someone outside of his in-group -- not only across lines of nationality, but also those of religion, race and class -- becomes a participant, whether he knows it or not, in a global experiment in developing empathy. The awareness and negotiation of small differences add up to a larger understanding about the complexities of the world."
I never though I would date someone who grew up in a country so very different from my own. Where would the similarities lie? Where would we find common ground? But dating Sean has expanded my consciousness in every direction possible. Sean has pushed me to travel much more, and to see the world as he sees it. It seems like only a year ago my world stretched only as far as New York to Los Angeles. But with him, I have been able to experience and do things I would have never dreamed of for myself. Perhaps this is because we only become what we're exposed to. It was never my dream to see so much of the world, but I'm glad I'm getting to share it with him.
xo
As many of you have seen on instagram, I recently spent 10 days in Beijing. I literally styled and packed 10 looks, because I wanted to make sure I had something planned for every single day. Of course, I didn't have enough clothing for the trip and regretted some of my decisions at the time of packing - but hey, it's hard to plan that far ahead.
I mostly mixed stuff from Nasty Gal with a few key pairs of shoes (there was not a lot of room for shoes in my trunk), with three bags, two fur coats and two paris of sunglasses. I find that if you bring a few accessories you can mix across all your outfits, then it makes everything simpler.
I enjoyed trying to wear skirts (I hardly wear them) a bunch of different ways on this trip. I also loved living in a hotel for 10 days, hehe! Although, I didn't order room service nearly enough. It seems like I didn't get much time to slow down, there was so much to see and do. China was a really hard place to get a grasp on in a first visit, but I'm sure I'll feel better once I go back. My favorite part of the city was of course the arts district, it was a lot like bushwick.
Anyways, the links to shop all my looks are below! Can't wait to hear which look you like the best or which ones you wouldn't wear on a trip!
thanks for all the love and support
xx
contrast lives pussy blow blouse by Nasty Gal
Maison Scotch magda pleated skirt by Nasty Gal
on a mission vegan leather skirt by Nasty Gal
after party kennedy striped tee by Nasty Gal
off the shoulder ruffle top by Nasty Gal
friend with weed tee by Nasty Gal
suede mini skirt by Nasty Gal
Jeffrey Campbell studded over the knee boot by Nasty Gal
simone leopard shades by Nasty Gal
star faux fur coat by Nasty Gal
faux fur tiger jacket by Nasty Gal