august en fleurs

Here's a little round up of my last month, summer's been more fun than I could of hoped for. It's been a wild mix of photos, late nights, road trips, champagne, pilates, long conversations and hard times. 

I didn't think it was possible to go through so much in one summer, but then again I suppose the seasons always change us. I feel deeper, like I can love more / feel more. My body is stronger from hours of pilates and training for the marathon. My heart is stronger from deeper connections with friends and loved ones. We are always moving forward, I'm starting to see how even the hard stuff serves our expansion. 

I love all of you guys and I just wanna say thank you for following me through this journey. 

xx 

hudson, ny

I met him at the steps in Grand Central on Friday afternoon. We took the early evening train two hours outside the city. I had my hand pressed against the window the whole time, watching the sun set on the Hudson River. He snapped photos and slept by my side. 

We took a cab to a little house where we hibernated for the entirety of the weekend. Red wine, local fruits, and lots of love. We are celebrating where we are. I've never wanted much more than someone to focus on and love, making art together has always been an added bonus. 

We took seven rolls of film as I danced around the old house. Summer felt easy, needs easily satiated. We are growing together as we create. It is a simple kind of union, a love flowing into our experience.

He captures my world just as it is. 

I love you. 

<3 

"she is a woman whom life intoxicates, who has no need of wine, who is floating in a self-created euphoria"

And so it is. Little blonde artist aligned with abundance. Sometimes I post photos like these because I'm hoping you can see into my mind - it's wild eclectic nature, it's rose garden like ease, it's creative sexuality. 

You are the maker of your own world. Take that power, and sculpt clouds in your mind. Erect mountains in the depths of your thoughts, find yourself immersed in the pleasure of your own company. 

You get to be with you for your whole life, and then some more after that. Take pleasure in this earthly experience in which you've chosen to participate. Drink the juice of a watermelon, drink wine. Write words. Listen to music that makes you feel. Find out who you are and stand by it so true that no wind could ever move you. 

xx 

in the mountain, in the cloud

Fell in love with the mountains many years ago. Baby's muse. Running around in a setting sun, better than my best dream. 

Four hours outside the city, just daydreaming as the trees speed by. I place all my preocupations and wishes into them. All my wild fantasies and melodies. These will just be places to me now. 

Three cameras, and endless rolls of portra 400. A shitty motel stuck in time, a summer eve that never ends. The sun doesn't set in the mountains. Two bottles of the most delicious red, mostly consumed by me. Lots of water and feeling. Lots of reflections and waves. 

I am absolutely free. I can see it in the way you've capture me. You saw that freedom and let me run. Little wild one. 

We were old, but now we're kids. 

photos by Sean Zhao