watching movies with the sound off

by Rachel Lynch

forgetting to document the good stuff, every minute counts.

light rush to my head, i don’t know what to say anymore.

holding back is getting harder, the air is getting warmer.

i want you by my side all the time.

xx

springtime pink

by Rachel Lynch

Some long-weekend style inspiration for you all. My bag is vintage dior + the butterfly bag is part of a new collection on dolls kill. Same with the butterfly bell-bottoms. All the other pieces are from the new spring collection at i am gia.

new loft / series III

by Rachel Lynch

We move from morning to evening with ease, the sorrows surrounding us slip away. We dine on white walls, fresh wood floors, and the smell of a bustling street. It is springtime, and we are in love again.

I’m doing my best to be healthy, and you’re doing your best to take care of me. It’s only a matter of time before I slip from my immediate surroundings into a sing-song world in my head.

But my love for you, these past four years, has always pulled me out of there. I’ve lost the identity of “psychiatric patient” and I get to be normal with you. I get to have a home, nice things and food to eat. My belly is always full with wine, affection, affluence.

Inside, I am cold. The kind of cold that develops after the world has forced you to be strong. I am hard in all the places I was once broken, this also makes me hard to love. I miss the ease of mental-illness, the way it took up all my time.

Now, I have to enjoy the sunshine, the world- the people in it. I have to be kind where I once would hide, show my face even on the bad days.

I don’t wear makeup the way I used to, my brows are thick, and my body is strong. I can do a push up. My arms can lift, and my legs can carry me.

Someday when I slide the rest of my fragility off, I will be dangerous. Very dangerous. A force to be reckoned with, an incredible artist with a room of her own and a strong love at her side.

xx

5.8.19

by Rachel Lynch

today’s look. i’m obsessed with these pants from dolls kill. i love a chain/ harder masculine vibe. my shirt/robe is an old house of harlow piece, and i’ve worn it in every single way possible. i’ve even worn it as a dress during revolve week!

anyways, i love you all. trying to get back more into fashion/looks.

i’ve missed who i was/ who i am becoming.

xx

disco barbie

by Rachel Lynch

My favorite hot bikini of the season and of course, I paired it with a big chanel and cowboy boots. I’m loving all the western trends and big accessories. My earrings are giant pink butterflies from dolls kill.

Everyone enjoy this beautiful tuesday.

xx

lucid pink bikini top by minimale animale

lucid bikini bottom by minimale animale

holograms for my lover

by Rachel Lynch

speaking to each other in the hidden tongue, we are manifestations of the ideal. both rhythm and fall out. both celestial bodies and creatures of the night.

we sleep till noon and say i love you too soon. entire days spent sans-phone, hand in hand.

first cups of coffee, smells of summer. central park to soho. everything illuminated. jean jackets and drinks. late nights and white sheets. rolls of film and train rides.

slip into the season like you slip into a new love.

xx

clothing by cloud blvd.