the high line hotel

some recent film snaps. i’ve taken a small 2 week hiatus from shooting / producing content. i’m busy building my new house into a dream land, and really excited to get back to shooting this week.

i’ve been in such a weird / distracted place. not exactly creating what i want / not having my body where i know it needs to be. this week feels like a new beginning. a light. i’m all set up in my new loft and feeling creative. i want to make beautiful images and perhaps do another book. last time i wrote a book with images was 2016, when i moved into the wooster street loft.

perhaps its time to make another. i’d love to make it cheaper this time/ more accessible. let me know your thoughts.

xx

million dollar baby

Some recent looks I shot just wandering around the neighborhood last week. All on film. The change of seasons has me inspired to wear cool outfits. I’m shooting some new looks on Wednesday as well. Feeling glam and fab and fresh!

happy monday my silly blondes!

xoxo

you can shop these looks on my depop!

city girl

vintage tourist tee by binge on vintage

bell-bottoms by disco hunnys

hat by champion

bag by chanel

"with each love i cut loose, i was never the same"

with each love i cut loose, i was never the same.

regret’s never been a word i use, i think change is better suited.

some took parts of me, modified my art for the better, and for the worse.

some days we feel good, and we are left to make sense of all the parts. some broken, some entirely whole.

some didn’t respect my vision, my style, my sexuality.

some took from me in ways i couldn’t see at the time.

i guess every year, i become more awake. the change of season brings this out of me.

as an artist, you shouldn’t attempt to do what someone can do better. only work in the medium in which you can offer the world something no one else can.

that is truth.

xx

"i seem to have it better in my dreams"

i pull softness out of the world and i give it back. i create with what i see and what i find.

often, i feel i have it better in my dreams. i long to be asleep, my world, creating and doing. i like long sleeps, and waking up at 3am just to fall back into the storyline.

freud said, “watch yourself, watch your fantasies, because they’ll tell you something.”

i guess i’ve been doing that lately. paying attention to my daydreams, the people that come to mind when i hear music. it’s all telling me something, making the unknown apparent, and maybe that serves a purpose. maybe i’m a little more awake.

xx

photos by jen senn

"all that wanted to catch fire would have been consumed"

i desire so deeply to weave my love for painting, writing, photography and fashion. i believe “influencing” does that well. that way the viewer can be effected by the entirety of your life and not just fragments. the pieces are valuable, but they are part of a much larger story. besides, the way one lives their life is truly the highest art.

i’ve been feeling like what you do matters. what you don’t do matters. we are all so interconnected, our actions bear more weight that we are often willing to carry. and some things you only get to have if you’re all in. like marriage. if one of you thinks you’re going to leave, then you’re not married. maybe you get some fleeting hedonistic pleasure, but the far greater pleasure has to be a lifetime together - children, honesty, a home. these must fill the soul so much more.

the same goes for being an artist. if you’re not all in, then what are you even doing?

xx