We never had a sense of there being a right or a wrong side of the room. She had razor sharp wit, a slighting sardonic drawl that comes with having lived a thoroughly adult life since her early teens. She had self-assurance by the bucket-load, but emanated it as charm rather than ego. We curled up in the Bowery Hotel’s soft king bed and made sad faces when we had to leave it for our studio sublet.
Things are not what they seem. After a year of romance, she learned that he was capable of absolutely anything except moderation. Even when he wanted to rein himself in, whatever was building inside — passion, inspiration, aggravation, hilarity — inevitably came fire-hosing out. Artistic luminaries are often this way, detached and aloof to the feelings of their lovers.
She smells of midnight, barefoot in a baggy sweater. Another night of of watching him sink slowly into an oblivion of fear and chemicals. Inebriated as you can get off your latest sold painting. “Unlike you, I’m not afraid of life, or my passions,” she said. Now begins the falling out, the shifting sands into courage. The courage to detach from the need to hold on to people and things. In essence, you can never own anyone or anything anyway.
bell bottoms by Lip Service Cult
metal bustier by UNIF
tights by Pretty Polly
charm bracelet and rings by Katie Dean
photos by Raymond Croft
Every single night and every single day, imma do my thang. So don’t you worry about me, imma be okay. Imma shoot em down baby, look at me, I’m high up off the ground baby. Oh shit, pass that shit around baby. That shit true, but I don’t hear a sound baby.
We do it, we don’t give a fuck. Only thing we care about is, turn it up.
Bang bitch. You think I’m strange, bitch? It’s bananas like a fuckin ‘rangatang bitch. Don’t worry ’bout me. I got it all arranged bitch. Mind your business, stay in your lane bitch. Oh, yeah, I’m a southern belle. I told ya’ll once before, I get crazier than hell. Get wild up in here. Get live up in here. Turned up, up in here. Burning up, up in here.
We do it, we don’t give a fuck.
miley swimsuit by Clashlist
boots by Jeffrey Campbell
sunglasses by Wildfox
neoprene moto jacket by UNIF
photos by Emma Lauren